Results after the test treatment in November 2009.
A first test treatment of 20 hours of distance therapy has been carried out in the course of a week preceded by a contact by telephone.
The following results have been achieved:
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Emmanuela:
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. I less need to stuff myself with food.
. I can much better concentrate when I’m studying.
. I can better share food with my partner.
. I’m calmer.
. I’m less sad.
The actual treatment hasn’t started immediately after this test treatment. After one month and a half the results seemed to have diminished as a result of which yet another test treatment of 20 hours has been carried out in order to have certainty regarding the rate of the results, in order to exclude that Emmanuela belongs to the ‘slow group’. Because in that case an example treatment can’t go ahead.
Emmanuela eventually chose not to proceed with the example treatment because she didn’t want to bring her story on the internet after all. The results after 40 hours of therapy are rendered anonymously here.
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Results after 40 hours of therapy
. I don’t think I’m ugly anymore, that’s over. I can better accept myself. I still think I’m not pretty. But this no longer stands in the way of the relationship with my partner. It no longer occurs that I think my partner finds me repulsive as a result of which I couldn’t bear him touching me even just for a moment. I have more faith in him, I no longer create a distance between us. I start to believe him when he tells me he finds me attractive, I can accept this as true, and it makes me happy.
. There are less irritations between me and my partner. I feel better understood by him, he can better help me. He listens better when I tell something. I don’t feel lonely anymore. I no longer have the feeling there’s a gap between us. I feel more supported by my partner. He has always supported me, but I didn’t see it like that.
. I couldn’t get myself to study. This is much better, I can easily get to study now, I can study for hours on end and I can concentrate very well. I can better form sentences, I can better express what I want to say. I’m still always very nervous during an exam and therefore I still forget to mention things, but I already forget less, though.
. I still suffer from the same fear of failure when I have to do something in which I have to succeed (studying, an exam, among other things), but nevertheless I do it whereas before I would have quit or I do it better than before.
. I’m still very insecure about my self-discipline and my intelligence, but that insecurity doesn’t paralyze me anymore. I still suffer from fear of failure with regard to studying, but this fear doesn’t paralyze me anymore. I’m less nervous when I study and I no longer tell myself I don’t study efficiently or that I’ll never succeed.
. I no longer agonize over having little self-discipline, it doesn’t make me feel inferior anymore. I can better accept myself the way I am.
. I’m no longer concerned about failing to succeed, this may be the result of the fact that studying is going better. I’m no longer telling myself I won’t succeed all the time, which was accompanied by intense fear and eating. Now I tell myself: if I really want it, I can do it, but I have to work hard for it.
. The things I do are really good now. I complete things successfully. Before I wouldn’t have succeeded in doing the same things. My doubt, fear and negative self image have been replaced by the thought that I can do it.
. After talking to someone I’m no longer concerned this person must be thinking I’m stupid afterwards.
. When I’m outdoors, I no longer want to make myself invisible because I think I’m not attractive and not wanted. I’m also no longer close-mouthed and I can enjoy things more. As a result I no longer stuff myself with food or smoke after a contact outside of the house.
. I no longer want to prove to myself, my mother and my son that I have self-discipline and that I’m intelligent, I still want to have self-discipline and to be intelligent.
. I worry less about things, I can more easily let go of something. For example, a quarrel with my son no longer haunts me that long. I’m less fretting about things. I’m no longer worrying about studying, about the subject matter, about the exam, about never succeeding, about my bad eating habits, about smoking, about my bad relationship with my son, about money, …
. I don’t tend to stuff myself with food as much anymore, but perhaps that’s because I’m smoking a lot for the moment.
. I’m less easily annoyed about all kinds of small things. Rude or disrespectful people don’t irritate me anymore.
. I’m not deeply unhappy anymore, I’m not intensely sad anymore. I’m no longer sad about who I am, about my appearance or about the problems with my son. I’m happier, I’m more often happy, I’m not depressed anymore. I also no longer have the feeling I’m not doing anything useful with my life. The studying has given me a purpose since this is working out now.
. I no longer feel panic when I think about how little I have achieved in my life so far, I no longer suffer from pain in my chest and I no longer have tension in my body. Fears related to this, have disappeared. The feeling of regret and dissatisfaction with myself has lessened, but it’s not completely gone yet. I can forgive myself now for not having studied in the past, but I still regret it, though.
. I still have stress due to my thoughts of not being the way I would like to be and having to do something about it, but it has diminished, though. I still feel this stress in my shoulder and my back and it still makes me eat or smoke.
. I’m less fearful about not being able to do anything good for this planet, I’m less afraid my son will go astray.
. My son told me a little bit more during our latest contact. The contact has improved a little , but the tension that used to be between us, is still there.
. I’m less reluctant to do things that have to be done, do the housekeeping. There is still reluctance, but I can go against it and still do the work.
. I sleep much better.
